Mommy Teresa

Up at night!

2011-12-31T02:26:00.001-08:00

It is 2:08 am sooo much on my mind! Just watched a utube video on Ben Breedlove...who died on Christmas 2011. Talked about his experience of almost dying three times! Gave me comfort about were my sister may have been the week before she died. With an angel! Watched the video "we are the world..Haiti " awesome awesome...touches your heart as songs do! Take a look at it.

Love those around you with all your heart...heal broken relationship for you will miss them when they are gone! Tend to those relationships in your life now because they are worth more than Gold. Love the children with the love of God. Smile to those who you don't know...it could make someone feel like they matter! You don't have to go across the sea to just to help someone ( if you can that is most wonderful too!) ...they could be at your church, school, neighbor, or family member. For we are the examples of God to the world even if the world may not know him!!!

To sleep or not to sleep is the real question!

2011-11-30T00:05:00.001-08:00

How did I get here? Kids waking up three or four times a night. Having to stay in the room until they fall asleep. After all that I still wake up in my full size bed with three kids a husband and myself. There was a time when I could put all three kids in bed by themselves awake with the door open and the night light on and walk out without a fuss!

Something happened along the way to get us here at this point. But that is not what I am going to talk about.
I have decided to blog this experence in my life because I know from Facebook that I am not alone in this nightmare of a cycle... and I do mean nightmare! (smiles)

After going home for Thanksgiving and seeing other family member put their kids to bed I thought to myself that is enough. I can't do it anymore. It's not good for me and it's really not good for my kids. With out the help and support of many, which we all need...I am ready to tackle this problem.

I started Friday November 25th 2011. Through the encouragement of my older sister Lia who has two kids of her own I used the crying method. There are many methods and I read up on a few. I also remember the "nanny" method taken from the show "The Nanny".

One of the nanny methods, was to kiss them good night and put them in bed. When they came out of the room...put them back in bed with out saying anything and do this until they stay in bed. I know it works because that is how I got all the kids to go to bed the first time. It was effective but very tiring for me. Now that my youngest Emma is older that method did not work very well.

So I went to the crying method of letting them cry it out. Extremely effective and less tiring for me physically. But I must worn you very hard on the heart as a mother. You need people to call as you go through this to encourage you through it. It is easy to give up on...but you must be strong because as my sister and mom would say it is better in the long run for all of you! If both parents can be on board with this even better!

I have logged my 5 day and will show you the progress!

Friday night took them 50 min to stop crying and to go to sleep. 50 min that were so hard! I was texting my sister back and forth and calling my mom just to get through this! Eli and Alex stayed in bed and cried. Emma feel asleep in front of the door with her little fingers underneath the door. I had to wait till she woke up to move her back into her bed.

Saturday night it took 28 min and only Eli and Emma were crying. Emma fell asleep by the door with her little finger peaking through.

Sunday Took another 28 min of just Emma crying. This time I heard her run back to her bed and she fell asleep in her bed. I was very excited about that.

(I forgot to mention that they have a light on and music playing to drown out the noise from the family room as our house has very thin walls and is small. They also all sleep in the same room for we only have a 2 bedroom 1 bathroom house)

Monday it took 3 min for the room to be quiet and all were in their beds asleep. I could not believe it! Eli woke up and woke up Emma of course and we had to start all over again but a battle had been one.

Tuesday tonight it took 38 seconds and everyone was in their beds and quiet. The door was still open and the light on. This light is not a really bright light... but it was not a night light. Eli needed to feel safe. I thought I would try to compromise.

When they were asleep I would open the door turn off the light and the night light would be on and the music going or not.

Now Eli my 5 year old would often yell from the other side of the door anything he could say to have me come in the room. "mommy I'm scared! Mommy I need to tell you something...you need to come in so I can tell you something. Mommy there is a black widow in the room and it's gonna bite me. I am not happy about this...tell daddy that I need to discuss the with him. I am not okay with this. Mommy are you out there? I need to know your out there." I answered him once and then did not answer him the other times. They will try everything and anything to have you open the door.

I also would explain every night what was going to happen. I would shut the door and when you are asleep I would open it up. I will always be in the family room. You are with your brothers and sister!

It is late and I am finally winding down from them waking up. I should head to bed now. Before I leave you I must tell you that it's not over! It has only begun. My kids still wake up many times at night at they still end up in my bed most of the time. It is now time to tackle this problem. Because I am still not getting sleep and they are still waking up.

Last night Emma cried for about an hour and woke up Eli. He through a tantrum because he did not want to go back to bed in his room. Tonight before 11 he woke up three times and tried to stay out in the family room with daddy or come crawl into bed with me.

Emma wakes up and wants me to hold her hand till she falls asleep. This is what I am trying to break her of at the beginning of bed time.

I will be back tomorrow to fill you in on what I did. Along with some other things I have done! Night you all and I'll see write you tomorrow ... I hope not this late at night or should I say early morning! Smiles

Forgiven my grammar and my spelling...it's late!

One more thing...my son Alex cried the first night and has not cried since...He also is the only one that sleep through the night and usually wakes up around 5 or 6 and then we go comfort him or he crawls down the hall into our room!

Small...I mean Small acts of kindness go so very very far for being so small!

2011-02-06T21:11:00.000-08:00

I don't know if it is because as an adult you hear more of the bad things that are happening in the world or all around you or even with your friends and what they have to go through. I don't know if it's because as a child you are more focused on yourself than other. What I do know is this ... the smallest acts of kindness make the world of difference.

I experienced this tonight. Today was a hard day. Kids fighting, not listening, getting nothing done was what I was dealing with. I went to the food store to get milk and when I came out, a man took my cart and put it away for me. You may say, what that is just... Nothing big.. but to me, it made my night. He may not have even thought about it or even cared. He was just putting away his card and took mine as well. But to me it was him showing kindness to a stranger.

So, I guess I write this for two reasons. The first reason is the littlest things you may not know you do... could mean the world to another person. A smile, opening the door for someone, or a phone call to say hi I'm thinking about you are all things that could change the outlook on someone bad day. The second reason is a reminder to start teaching our children to recognize the little things you do mean a lot! Helping a brother or sister while they are feeling sad. Or sharing a toy with a friend could change their outlook on that day. To start to make it a natural thing to just think of others, not for a reaction, or for a Thank you but just because that is what God calls us to do!

I pray that tomorrow, I may be more conscious of not holding back with the little things I can do, to who ever I see or come in contact with, where ever I may be.

As my world turns!

2011-02-03T23:22:00.000-08:00

Tired! Seems as though at night I am more tired than I have ever been in my life! Usually I'm a night person but not so much anymore!

Worried! About Alex, my sister, my friends, and many other things I just don't want to get into!
Thankful, for a loving husband and three beautiful kids who fill my days with such love and joy, even when they are sucking all the energy out of me. Smiles

Calm: That the Lord has me right were I need to be. Even if it is in a place where I don't want to be... good will come out of it because it is where God wants me!

Hope: for a better tomorrow, May it be filled with joy and life lessons, and good talks.

Hoping that my words maybe comforting for those in need. That I may share in the joy for others when good things happen to them!

Tears: for my friends and family who need a listening ear and a compassionate hear! May I meet them where they are and give them the love God has given me!

Trust: In the Lord for my not so great circumstances. That I may trust the Lord that he is watching over us.

Most of all Love: May I show Love through my actions to family and friends. May they get a small glimpse of God's love through me to them.

To be continued tomorrow night! Smiles

Whooping Cough!

2010-09-04T01:30:00.001-07:00

So, I really can't sleep all that well. Alex has this really bad cough and I was worried that it might be in his lungs. Last December he had pneumonia and was rushed to the E.R by ambulance and was dehydrated and had to have fluids through an I.V.

My new little one, Emma was taken to the hospital on Christmas Eve with RSV. She was only 1 month old.

My little Alex just gets everything. Not just little cold but the major things, R.S.V, Pneumonia, Mono. Really can't this kid catch a break. We got a call from the Dr. today telling us that he tested positive for whooping cough.

I don't watch t.v and we don't get the news paper. I really have not heard anything about this Whooping Cough. No excuse really. As a mother I should know these things.

Oh it's 1:35 and I am just so worried about everyone. My husband also has it! Just not a good thing around here!

For thouse who read this, Prayers are much needed! Lack of sleep... worried...and beat. We all are!

I guess God thinks I can handle a whole lot! Right now he is my strength because this human body has no more! There is light at the end of this very long tunel..... I hope! Give me the strength to get through this all! Pray that I don't get sick so that I can take care of all the others! When I am weak he is strong!

Love Love Love my Kids!!!!!!

2010-06-28T23:14:00.000-07:00

All these picture were taken by my niece Corty Keller!!

Before you know it, They are all grown up!!!

2010-06-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I have just got to share with you that I have been able to take a little breather. Life is still as crazy as ever, but for some reason I am able to look at my kids and see them! Actually see them and enjoy them!

A few fun this have happened this week...

Tuesday my little Emma started to get across the floor all by herself. She is not on her hands and knees yet but she is moving her self around. I have so been able to enjoy her "littleness" ! To enjoy her as a baby and to see her learning in all her glory!! I missed out on that with Alex and at the beginning I was missing out on Emma being a baby when she was born. Not sure how to explain it. Just could not fully enjoy Emma as a baby with all the stuff going on with Alex. God has given me that blessing of seeing my child where she is!!! So very thankful!!! She also went in the pool for the first time this week and she swung in a swing for the first time. Alex got to enjoy pushing Emma on the the swing. At first she just looked at me with this blank impression. Not sure how to react. Then she saw my Big smile and the giggles started to pour out of her mouth and that Smile was so big! She loved them both. Yeah!!

Alex tonight signed three word all together. Not really sure what it meant but the fact that he signed three thing together just made my heart flutter with joy! He signed Car, yes, please. Not sure really what he was saying, but I know that he is little by little starting to get language. We were at my friend Jan's house for lunch and Alex was sitting up straight (his back straight not in a "C" shape) and his knees were bent! Most of the time for balance and his tone his knees are always straight out. But I saw that and so so proud of him. He also get's to be fitted for new braces for his legs next Tuesday. So exciting!! Just the little things are so great for me right now!

Eli, my little Eli, wow he is growing up so fast. I just look at him and though nothing is wrong with him, he just takes on the world! After I sign something to Alex he tries to sign the same thing to Alex. He want's to communicate with his brother. He doesn't always know how to play with Alex. He plays around him but not with him. We are working hard on that but he wanted to sign with him and to me that is so amazing!! So nice to see as a mother.

We did have a scare thing happen with him. He feel in my sisters pool and was drowning. Very scary. I was at the other end with Emma and I heard a splash and I saw his arms waving up in the air. My first reaction was to get over to him. Fortunately my sister Mindy was right there and jumped in after him! For some reason there was no fear in my heart. There was just, I have to get over to him and pick him up. That was from God. I just know it was! I am so thankful that it did not traumatize Eli. He was fine after that and really did not cry at all. Taught me a less though, Have him wear a life jacket even if he is not going to go in the water. Think I will be going to Wallgreens and getting that $7 life jacket for him for next time. Smile

Over all this week has been a really good week! The highlight for me with this week , as well as all the highlight my kids had, was hanging out with my friend Jan and talking with her. To be real and to talk about hard stuff with someone you trust is truly a blessing from God. She has been such an encouragement to me! You should see her with my kids! They love her so much. Eli is always saying " I need to sleep in my bed so that I can tell Jan that I did." "I put on my cloths all by myself, Gotta tell Jan she would be proud." Thank you Jan for being you! I pray that everyone has a Jan in their life!!! Smile

Also, I feel like I have one of the best sisters in the world. Mindy and her husband have been so kind in every way with me and my family. I am truly blessed and want to acknowledge that! Thank you Mindy for being a wonderful sister and an amazing Aunti. Thank you Chad for being a most wonderful childlike Uncle to my kids!!

There a lots of wonderful positives in my life amongst the crazyness in my life and I thank God for allowing me to see that!

Till next time! Sweat dreams!!!

"I LOVE YOU!"

2010-05-27T22:39:00.000-07:00

My heart is heavy for my little one!! He just got over another sickness that took him out for about a week! The only symptom was a fever over the weekend and then the next week he slept. He was so tired all week. I was really worried about him.

This is going to be the norm for him when he gets sick. It takes all the energy for his little body has to fight the sickness off. To see my little one like this... words can not describe! The worst part about it is...we have very little communication between each other. I sign to him all the time and he is slowly learning signs. It's been a total nightmare trying to get him speech therapy. I kept signing "I LOVE YOU". I hope that he understand the depth of love I have for him!!!

Someday there will be a time when HE can tell me "I LOVE YOU" if it's with words or if it is through sign I will take it anyway I can. I want to know him!!!! I want to know what goes on in that little sweet head of his! I desperately want to help him when he is frustrated and can't get across what he wants. To have just a conversation with him would be a dream come true!

My heart is heavy for my little one! So I ask the Lord for strength for Patience, for understanding as I teach my little boy language in some form. (What we most of the time take for granted.) I pray for sensitivity when he throws his tantrum and for the wisdom to know how to deal with them when they arise!

I know in my heart how deep the love goes and where it's gonna take us both! For it is not only my love but God's love, and how much more love can that be!!!!

My dear little Alex, you are amazing!! Your smile and giggle light up my day! I see how much you want and desire, just in your eyes and I so want to get you to where you need to be! May I be your example of Gods love pouring down on you. To be the cheerleader you need me to be.
To be your mom is such a privilege that I never take lightly! Thank you so much for being a little Alex!!!! I LOVE YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!

Happy Mothers Day!!!

2010-05-08T22:44:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow is Mothers Day! I have been thinking a lot about it tonight! I love being a mother! When I was young that is one thing I wanted to be when I grew up! For me becoming a Mother is the hardest thing! There is so much to that title!

As a Mom, I pray that my kids know that I love them. Yes, I tell them over and over again but I really want them to know in their minds and in their hearts! As for me I need to discover how each one of them accepts my love! I could tell them till I'm blue in the face that I love them but with out action behind it, they are just words. Are they words that my children can trust and believe in!

As I continue to think about this, I know that people care and love me by the time they spend with me. Someone can tell me that they love me over and over again but it isn't really real until they take that time.

I am a big gift giver! I love giving gifts! It's how I show that I care about my friends, family, and children. The joy I get for making people smile and to have something tangible for them to be reminded that they are loved by me is priceless!

My husband wants to hear that I love him! No matter how much I clean up the house or cards I give him. He accepts my love through my words that are spoken.

I have no idea how Eli, Alex, or Emma accepts my love and I have years to come on finding that out. I believe it is so important to find that out! As a mother that is very important to me!!! Because when I am teaching them how to grow through life lessons they need to know that it comes from a loving spirit!

With the title of being a "Mother" come big responsibilities! I mean BIG! It also comes with So much JOY and LAUGHTER. On the flip side, it comes with heart ache and worry, and every other emotion imaginable. Smile

I trust in God that he made me the way I need to be to take on this great big responsibility of being a Mother. Every step of the way, he is right there guiding me. Teaching me how to take care of his children!

I am blessed to be a Mother! To me it is the best job in the whole world!!

Thank you to my family, OH how much I love each and everyone of you!!!

Who Knew?

2010-04-22T21:20:00.000-07:00

I titled this posting, "Who Knew?" Why do I say this? When I was a little girl my dream in life was this: To become a teacher, to become a wife, and to become a mother. To live my life the way God wants me to. Along this journey I have taken winding roads instead of the straight and narrow path. Each winding road growing me stronger into the person I need to be for where I am now in life!

Why did God allow me to have polio, why did I have to deal with all the self esteem issues that go along with it. Why did I get married latter in life? Why have I not become a teacher. But I ask myself these question and I know the answers and they are the three little children that you see in these pictures. My life experiences have prepared me to help my children grow into the young children they are going to be. My ability to be social and outgoing will help Eli to become the confident young man that I hope he will become. My understanding of physical challenges will help Alex to get the extra encouragement he needs to overcome his challenges. My desire to teach is helping all my kids to learn and to love to learn. Everything is a lesson in life!

So, I have become the person I want to be, maybe not the way I thought it would look like but they way God saw it would be!

The little things I relish... Eli reading two sentence's in a book at 4 years old. Alex signing his first "two word" put together, Emma rolling over for the first time. These are my joys!

I am blessed to have a husband who supports me in all I do! He works so hard so that I can stay home and be actively involved in my kids lives!! To a wonderful family who helps me financially and emotionally, as I go through all the tough struggles as well as blessings. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends who are my church family, who I know are there for me when ever I need them. For wonderful Mentors in my life who have supported me and given me such Godly wisdom and wisdom from their own lives to carry me through everything! MOST OF ALL I AM BLESSED To HAVE THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF MY FATHER UP IN HEAVEN. Who knows all and shows me a little at a time of his best for me!!!

Thank you from the bottom of my heart! May I give to you as much as you have given to me!!!

I am back!

2010-04-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! I know it's almost been a year since my last posting. My life got really crazy busy! This year has been eventful. At my mops group a speaker came to talk on blogging so I thought I might pick it up again!

There is so much to say but right now I will give you the high lights of a few things. I'll come back tomorrow and write a little more and catch you up on what has been going on with the Taylor family!

Eli is now 4 and is in preschool and is now starting to read!
Alex is 2 1/2 and is doing well. He is involved in a lot of therapy and started to have horse riding therapy. "Ride to Walk"

And yes, there is a third one! I was correct in thinking it was a girl because baby Emma Christine Taylor was born on November 4, 2009. She has been such a joy and is growing up way to fast!

Jason, is still working hard to provide for his family and rock climbs and goes to our Wednesday Bible Study!!

I am running around like a chicken with it's head cut off! My life is very busy and am devoted to my husband, kids , family and friends. My passion is still crafting and I love to make things for my MOPS group!!

So, I'm back everyone and will be writing more frequently. I do have lots to say and will try to do it when it is not so late!!

Have a restful sleep and I'll see ya soon!

Embracing the Good!

2009-05-08T00:07:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone,

I just wanted to say many good things are happening that I get to focus on. I can escape the bad for just a little while.

We are pregnant again. Friday the 8th, I will be 3 months pregnant. This was a surprise for us, but a good one! This pregnancy has gone really well. I have had no morning sickness really. I mean besides the stomach flue twice last month I've had no nausea. Yeah! It has been a very different pregnancy so far. I think it might be a girl. (I am only guessing and hoping) There was a heart beat at the ultra sound. It was the first thing I looked for. (smile)

Eli is doing well. He is such a smart little guy that I think he is smarter than me already. (smile) I try to build up my son's self esteem everyday. I think he knows it to because all he as to do is look at me with those big brown eyes, and that smile to die for and he gets his way. This is not good on my part. (oops) I need to toughen up. (smile) We have been battling bed time for a while. Both boys have a hard time going to bed with out me singing a song or being in the room as for Alex having to rock him to sleep. Well, just yesterday we went back to putting them to bed and walking out. They are both not happy about that. It will take some time to get used to but I know they can do it. They did it once before. I need to just be consistent and strong. I just need to know in my head that in the long run it will be better for all of us. (smile)

Jason is working hard as usual. We don't get to see much of him these days. It's tough on all of us. I know he misses us and the kids miss him. I hope and pray that this will pass as well and there will be one day that we will get to do the family thing all together. As for now, God has us were we are for some reason. Still trying to figure it out. (smile)

Now for Alex, I can not tell you how much this little guy has changed. He is catching up little by little. I'll give you the highlights. He is clapping his hands together with both hands open. He is crawling on everything. He pulls himself up on to his little rocking chair and then pulls himself onto the couch and then were ever else he can. It is so great to watch. The best thing of all is that he is babbling all day long. It's the same sounds right now but it is so wonderful to hear. It seems like he says thing and then looks at me to answer his question or get what he asked for. I love it.

We are still having trouble with his contacts. We have our good days and our bad days. Seems like now, I have a harder time putting them in than taking them out. Who knows I now that someday in the future, Alex will be able to do it all by himself. In the mean time it's my job. I try to do it as fast as I can. He screams but then once they are out or in I pick him up and the crying stops right away. I don't blame him! Do you? I mean I would not want someone pocking my eye twice a day. (smile) He is such a little trooper. We also have some problems losing the contacts. I am constantly looking in his eyes hoping that they are were they are supposed to be. Once or twice a day they seem to move off of the eye. Most of the time it is still in his eye but we already have lost two contacts. The third time, I found it on his high chair. That was really lucky.

As for me, I am doing okay. I am just focusing on all the good. There are many other struggles in my life right now that have been difficult to deal with but I would rather train myself to look at the good. Not ignoring the hard things but not giving them my worry time. I need to not dwell on the bad and embrace the good!

Alex is crawling on hands and knee's!!!!

2009-03-22T23:23:00.000-07:00

I everyone, I am so excited to share with you that my little Alex who is 17month old is now starting to crawl on hands and knee's for the first time. He has only army crawled. Today Sunday March 22, 2009 he crawled all day on his hands and knee's. I am so proud of him! With all that is going on right now in my life this is Amazing News! He has come so far! I truly believe removing the cataracts really helped him with his confidence in seeing! He wants to move around more and now this!

Doctors still don't know what is wrong with him. They found some things to do with his mitochondria but are not diagnosing it just yet. Tomorrow he is going to have an ultra sound of his heart. Tuesday he will go in and get his stitches removed from his Right eye. Then I think that will be it for him. I don't think this little boy will have to be sedated anymore! He has already been sedated 7 times. This will be his 8th time.

Eli is doing well, really testing me these days! I feel like I don't get enough time with him. As things settle down I think the more attention will be spend less on doctors visits and more with my kids! I would like to start going out side more. We have to go outside more around 4:00pm so that there is shade for Alex's eyes! Since it stays sunning longer this is going to be a good thing! It's still difficult taking him out during the mid day. I do get to take both kids on walks because of the shaded stroller!

I've got to tell you a funny story about Eli. I was driving to Jason's cousins house and on the way we saw Firemen. They had boots in their hands and they were collecting money for a cause. Eli started asking me all these questions. In the end, I said it was a very kind thing for these firemen to do this. I think it is a very good thing! His reply was " If you think so mommy!"
I don't know where that came from! Sometimes I can't tell if he is 3 or 13.

Enjoy the pictures and video!!

Resa

Things Should settle down now!

2009-03-13T23:05:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,
It has been such a long time since I wrote. I am sorry! Things have been so crazy busy! I guess everyday has been busy for me since Alex has been born.

Well, this last weekend has been a little stressful. Let me get you up to date!

Friday March 6: I woke up at 5:oo am to get Alex to Kaiser in Rancho Cordova. He was going to be put to sleep so the eye doctor could look at his eyes as well as take the stitches out of his Left eye. We got home around 10-10:30am. My friend came with me and her two daughters watched Eli.

Well we came home and my husband was not doing well. (Earlier February he was diagnosed with Pacreatitus and Gall Stones) His Pacreatitus came back and he was in a lot of pain. He was lying down on the cement outside. His mother came to help him work and he was in too much pain to even walk around. He did not want to go to the E.R but let me call the Advice Nurse. She got him an appointment at 2:10 to see a doctor.

At 2:10 I was at Kaiser pt. West in Sacramento for his doctors apt. I was lucky the two daughters stayed to help watch both kids. I am so thankful for them!!!

The doctor told him to go to the E.R but he did not want to go so he ordered blood work done.

So at 7:30 at night, We get a call from the doctor and he said you need to go to the E.R Your levels are much higher than before. You need to deal with it.

So at 8:30 we were in the E.R room and Jason was admitted. I gotta tell you it was hard for me. It brought back a lot of memories of taking Alex to the E.R for his seizures. Well, he Jason was taken to a room in the E.R and guess what, it was the same room Alex had been in for his Seizures. Wow. I did not get home until 2:30 am the next morning.

His cousin Cheryl came. She was awesome! Totally helped me out by being there and I thank God for her.

My parents came the next day to help watch the kids while I went back and forth to the hospital. His mom was a great help as well. She stayed the night.

My sister and her Fiance helped out a bunch! They came and watched the kids and then came the next morning to watch the kids almost all day! I am so grateful to them. They all have been so supportive to me and my family!

I was very much taken care of!!

Jason was not able to get his Gall Bladder taken out that day because his pancreas was still inflamed. So Sunday is when he had it taken out. He i doing great right now. Back to work with help. But healing very well.

Alex is doing well, He has both contact in his eyes. We have been having trouble getting it out but these last two days I was able to get it out of one eye! Yeah!!!

Eli, is such a little trooper! He is weathering through it! Still needs attention but who wouldn't. This whole weekend and week has been about everyone but him. I try to give him special time with me but it's a little hard!

I love both my boys so very much! I hope things get to calm down now! My family has been through so much and we all just need a break!!!

Thanks for your prayers and support!!

Love, Resa

Alex second Surgery!

2009-02-27T22:08:00.001-08:00

Hi everyone! Alex's second surgery went well. Right now, we could not put the rt contact in his eye so he is wearing glasses for a week. My cute little man still has a smile on his face after everything.

Life is hard right now but we are getting through it. I have no other option than to get through it and we are.

Sometimes its hard and sometimes its not so hard. If my little man has to go through it then I will and if he can get through it, then I can.

Love you Alex!! So very much!

Eli is having a hard time of course. He wants mommy's attention. He is muddling through it. I am trying to give him the attention he needs but it is hard.

Please continue to pray for my family.

Thank you so much!!!!

Alex is home!

2009-02-06T22:51:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone,
I thought I would post some pictures of baby Alex! He did really good in surgery! The doctor told us that the catarcat that he took out was very dense and white. So he was not seeing anything out of that eye for about a month. The doctor did not put a lens in so baby Alex will have to have really thick glasses. His next surgery for his other eye is Feb 24th.

So onto the next stage. As you can see he has a smile on his face! He is such a trooper! I am so very proud of him!

He tries to itch his eye and take the patch of. That has been a bit difficult but we are doing better. He slept all day today and mommy even got in a nap with him. Yeah!

Eli has spent two nights with Nana. I miss him a whole lot and can't wait for him to come home! Thank you for all your prayers and your thoughts! They really make a difference!

Thank you also to my family who have been very supportive through all this!

I hope to post my crafts soon! Right now Daddy and Alex are a sleep on the couch and it is so adorable.

Eli is feeling much better! He still a cramping here and there but I think he is on the mend!

Jason is going to have Gall Bladder surgery next month. One surgery after another but at least it is happening.

Thank you father for your love and support through all the trials my family has been through and are going through! I would however like a brake from all of it! My family needs it. (smile)

Have a wonderful day everyone, I am going to!!

Won't be back for a while...I think!

2009-01-31T00:37:00.000-08:00

Everyone,

So, I'm not going to be blogging very much right now! Not that I really ever did but I was hoping to. Don't worry, I have not forgotten to post the crafts I have been working on. The truth is many of them are half finished due to baby Alex waking up. I do have some that I will take pictures of and then post them. I'll try to take pictures this weekend!

As last month was full of sickness, this month is full of doctors appointment, Pre-Op, Post Op, and surgery's. Baby Alex's first surgery is on Feb 6. I'm praying that he does not get sick between that time. His second surgery for his cataracts is on Feb 24th.

Then there is my poor husband who we found out has Gall stones. We are not sure what kind of surgery he will have. He will find out this Friday the 6th. Please keep him in your prayers!!!

So, I will be very busy!! I hope I get some crafting time in!!! It's my outlet!
When I have time I will come back to writing but for now, my family is my first priority!! They are going to need mommy a lot this month!

Thought I would add some fun photos. Yes, there is even a picture of me when I was little!

Take care,
Resa

Who is incontrol?! Not Me!!!

2009-01-26T00:29:00.001-08:00

Hi everyone,

It has been such a crazy month of sickness! My kids have been sick, it hit them hard!! It also hit my husband and I as well. We are all on the mend but wow!

So Alex as you know had pink eye and that cleared up but then he got an ear infection and RSV. I had to give him an inhaler to help him breath. He had it last year so I was not as worried because I how how to take care of it. I do however sleep with him to monitor his breathing.

Recently I have been crafting up a storm! I have this fun idea to start a card club and have been working on projects to show my friends all the things they can do. I have very excited about that.
Next time I will take pictures of what I have worked on and give you the link to where I found the instructions. Just in case there are fellow crafters who also want to do the as well.

I am very excited for my mops group to start up in February!!! I have missed the group and am looking forward to going back!

Jason and I got to go out on a double date the other night. We have not done that in such a long time. It was with my sister Mindy and her fiance! We saw the movie Underworld and went for Pizza after! It was great!! No kids and I didn't worry about them at all. It was a really great time!

I have been sad that I have not been able to go to church this month. I miss it and am looking forward to going back! With the kids and myself being so sick we have been quarantined to our house! I really want Alex to get better for his surgery!

Sooooo..... Today was the first time every that I could see Alex's cataract in his left eye! It was kinda scary looking and it covered the whole black part of his eye! His right eye you can see some of the cataract but it was nothing like the left eye! It got me really worried! I e-mailed the doctor right away!

Then, I kinda thought to myself that I have no control of it and I should not be so stressed out about it. God is in control and I have to trust in that. I mean for some resason Alex was not supposed to have his surgury this week and he as it all maped out! I do have to say, as a mother you will always worry about your children, it's what you do with that worrie that counts!!

Well, it is way to late and I better get to bed! I just thought I would write!
Hope all is well with everyone111

It has been awhile!

2009-01-14T00:12:00.001-08:00

Hi everyone,
Sorry that it has been awhile since I have posted anything! It has been quite busy with the holidays and taking care of Alex's needs! I hope everyone enjoyed the video of Alex crawling. He has done that three times and I'm hoping he will want to do that more. It is a big deal for our little Alex! We are so very proud of him.

We had a wonderful Christmas. The kids loved their gift. My parents got Eli a sleeping bag and he has gotten to use it twice alread and loves it. Santa brought him a desk for Christmas. He really likes that. Mommy has a desk for all her crafts and now he has a desk for all of his stuff!
Alex had a lot of fun opening all his gifts as well! We then went to our parents house and hung out with family! We all had a great time!

Christmas eve we had our annual gram cracker house decorating contest! With Jason's side of the family ever since I we got married we get together with as many family member that can come and have a contest! Some years we decorate cookies as well. These last two years Susan, Jason's sister has had a white elephant gift exchange that has become quite entertaining! She is all about the games.

We went to Tahoe one Sunday for the day and the kids got to see their first snow! Eli has seen it on t.v but never in person. He had a lot of fun and then we got pizza and drove home! It was a fun family event that we don't get to take often enough!

I thought things would calm down now that the holidays are over but I was wrong. Lots of Dr. appointments for Alex. We are very excited that Alex will be having his EYE SURGERY AT THE END OF THIS MONTH AND BEGINNING OF NEXT MONTH! His first surgery will be on Jan 28 for his left eye and his right eye is scheduled for February 6th. We have a lot of Pre-Op appointments and then Post-Op appointments. Please keep him in your prayers if you can remember.

Right now he is fighting a very bad cold that has been with him for about two and a half weeks. I took him to the docotor today and he has PINK EYE. This is not good and if it does not get better, if Alex's cold has not cleared up and his PINK EYE not better he will have to post pone the first surgery! We don't want that!

Please keep him in your prayers!

Eli is doing really well! He is also fighting of a bad cold as well. We pray that he does not get Pink Eye as well! He growing so fast. Right now he is testing me in everyway possible. It has been a bite of a strugel but he has to go through it! It is hard to go through but kinda exciting at the same time. I know that must sound crazy but he is becoming his own self and that is neat to see!
We wants to help me with cooking all the time. If it is making fried rice to his own peanut butter sandwitch he is all there. He is still having trouble with the fact that Alex gets so much attention with all his doctor visits. This next month is his birthday and he will be turning three. I am hoping to make it all about him and have it be really speacial. I told him to pick out a cake and I will make it for him!!

I am excited to start my card club! I love crafts!!! I love making cards and scrapbooking! It is all in the works now but I am hoping to host a party once a month for my friends who love to do all this as well. I will be teaching them how to make cards and other things. It will be a fun thing for me to do on the side! It will also allow me to get to know other people as well!

Jason is working really hard all the time! Things have been kinda hard for him as well. I won't go into detail. Please pray for him and stress!

Thank you for reading up on us and I hope this post finds you all well!

Baby Alex Crawling

2009-01-02T21:41:00.000-08:00

I can't believe it he started to crawl. I'll write again after this! It was only once but I am so proud. He did do this once yeasterday.

Why do I have to be were I am!

2008-11-23T22:04:00.000-08:00

So, the Lord is really allowing me to go through the ringer right now! New up date on Alex, he might have a small hearing loss in one of his ears! This could account for his lack of babbling! We are still in the process of finding out!

Can I just tell you all to pray for me, Resa! Lots of things are going on and I don't know why the Lord is putting me through it all. I'm not sure the lesson I'm supposed to be learning but I know it must be a hard lesson to learn! Maybe there is no lesson I don't know. Maybe I have to go through what I'm going through for someone else! I know one thing and that is the Lords work is being done!

I am relying only on the Lord! He is the only person who is hearing my hurt and pain right now! For that I thank him! He has put good people in my life to support me right now! My girlfriends are the best and I thank them with all my heart! I thank my two closest friends!

The Lord is good!!! I trust in that! I have too!

Thank you,
Resa

So proud of Alex!!!!

2008-11-12T00:39:00.000-08:00

I am so proud of my baby Alex!!! He is trying so hard to catch up! He works so very hard to do other things kids can do his age!

He if finally sleeping in his crib!! It was a lot of work put he is doing it! It's not to say that he doesn't wake up!

He is starting to pull up on things! He pulled himself up to his knee's in his crib! It was awesome to see. He looks at Eli jumping on his bed and he wants to do it in his crib!

He is trying to crawl around to catch up to his big brother! He's not crawling yet but he tries the best he can!! I get little glimpses of what life is going to be like with the two of them! I'm so very excited!!!

Good thing are starting to happen! He is getting the help he needs and is making big improvements. Still behind in motor skills and verbal skill but he is doing the best he can and I am so very proud of him!!!!!

Yeah Alex!!!!

I had forgotten!!!!!

2008-11-06T23:40:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone,
Life is moving on! Halloween was great! We made Eli the airplane costume that morning. That night we went to church and he got to play games and win candy. That was Eli's favorite part! Alex was wide awake for it all and had fun watching everyone. It was dark out so he could open his eyes all the way!

When Eli was 1 years old, I put together a slide show DVD for him. It had pictures of us at the hospital and Eli getting his hair washed. Most of it was pictures put there was some video of him saying "hi" at three weeks old and him rolling over! I really liked it! I put music to it and a fade in fade out transition.

I have not made one for Alex. Well, he is 1 now and I thought I should make him one. My friend let me borrow her computer and I am able to use it only for making the slide show. Tonight I was looking through my video of Alex in his first year! My husband and I thought we lost them on a hard drive that got corrupted but I was lucky I made a copy on a disk I didn't know about!

I saw videos of Alex babbling and kicking his legs and moving his arms. He was so energetic and full of life! This was all before the seizures and Mono and everything . It made me so very sad!!!!!! I started to cry and it hurt my heart very much so.

I had forgotten what he was like before the seizures!!!

I just see were he is now, trying so hard to catch up! Trying to follow his brother around and trying to see! It just brought back so much feelings. It hit me like a brick and it hurt!

I text my friend Suzy to see if she was still awake and she was! You know you have a good friend when you can call them at 10:30pm at night. I have two good friends that I know I can do that with. After that I felt better. Talked to God a little and thought I would write this down!

Life is hard right now but we are getting through it! I have the strength of the Lord and support from friends and family! I am very blessed by that!

Things are looking on the up and up! Alex is getting more therapy and I feel like I am getting a good support from Alta Regional and S.C.O.E! They seem to care a lot about Alex and want to give him the very best services!!!

If this video goes through, It's of Alex in December. He was a month and a half old!

Happy Halloween!!

2008-11-03T23:53:00.001-08:00

Here are my two boys and their Halloween costumes! Hope you like them. Not time to write about it but I will next time!

Getting through it all!!!!

2008-10-29T22:32:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,
So how have things been? Well, lots have been happening. Lots of appointments and new insight as to what is going on with Alex. I don't know if I told you but Alex has been really sensitive to the sun light. He closes his eyes or puts his head into my shoulder to avoid the sun light. We recently took him to an eye doctor. It was a tough appointment. They tried to look into his eyes but he would close them. They called it photo-phobia.
They put drops in his eyes and still he would not let them look into his eyes. They had to wrap him up and put those metal thing in his eyes to help spread the eye to open them. It was hard for mommy to see as well but it had to be done.

It turns out he has mild cataracts in both eyes. He will go back in December have another check up. He will be sedated for that appointment so they could get a better check!

We also went to the geneticist. They are puzzled with Alex's symptoms. But it's nice to know that they will be talking to all the doctors Alex's has and will try to figure out what is going on with him.

Things are coming together and I am happy about that!!

So how do I get through it all? I make cards or gifts. It might be late at night, but I have not been sleeping well and it helps get things off my mind.

I also think to myself, Yeah it's hard on mommy but just think how hard all of this is on my little Alex. If he has to go through it then sure can! Plus, a mother does anything for her son!!!!

Thanks for all your help and prayer!! Keep him in your thoughts he needs it.

He also got evaluated and he is behind in his motor skills. So he will be getting more therapy! Yeah!

Halloween is here and Eli is so excited! We got a costume for him but he does not want to be an Animal. My son wants to be an airplane. Yes, an Airplane. I wonder how I am going to pull that one off. (smile)

We found his winter cloths and I can't wait for him to see snow for the first time in his life. (smile)!!!

A Busy Week!

2008-10-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone,

Last Friday, Alex and his second MRI! The doctor called me after hours to let me know that everything is normal! Yeah! Praise God!

This week is very busy! Tomorrow Alex will see an eye doctor to check out his eyes and why they are super sensitive to the sunlight! Then Monday Alta Regional will come and assess Alex and see if he qualifies for their program. Then Thursday we have a G.I doctor's apt. Busy Busy Busy, but the ball is rolling and I'm starting to get the help that Alex needs!

Still not sure what is wrong with him but with all these new people to help intervene who knows we might just figure out what is going on.

There is hope in the Lord always!

As for me dealing with the loss of my baby, the sadness comes and goes. Sometimes is strong and sometimes it's not that strong. My body is also going through hormonal changes trying to get regulated again. That heightens my emotional state! (smile) My poor husband and kids. (smile)

Life seems to be to busy for me to even really think about my lost baby.

Thank you for everyones prayer and support!

Love,
Resa

BAD NEWS!!!!!

2008-10-12T02:25:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,

I'm back! I have not been able to write due to internet problems! We were down for about three weeks. Then some bad news happened. It's funny that I'm writing this after I wrote about finding out we were pregnant.

WE LOST THE BABY!!!

Last Monday October 6th was our first doctors apt. We were going to get our first Ultra Sound Picture. Funny, Jason and I were talking about if we were going to have one or two babies. That is what our minds were set on.

When we were looking at the Ultra Sound the baby kept moving away. (so I thought) The doctor was taking a long time with the Ultra Sound. I jokingly said: The baby is shy, she keeps moving away. The doctor had a seriouse look to her face and I asked her if everything was okay.

She said, Well, I am concerned because I don't see a heart beat. I remember from the other two that there was a pulsating little speck on the picture indicating the heart beat but there was none with this Ultra sound.

I said, I don't see was either. It still was not registering in my mind what was going on. She measured the baby and it was 9weeks 2 days old and the baby should have been 10week and a some days old.

She went out because she legally had to get a second option. While she left the room water filled up my eyes. My husband was with me. Jason's eye teared up as well. I don't remember what we said to each other.

The second Doctor came in and confirmed that there was no heart beat. Then the doctor apologized and said we need to think about setting up a DNC or you could wait and you could try to have it naturally.

At this point in time my body had not told me that I had a miscarriage. I cried on the car ride home. Then I was okay the rest of the day.

The next day was Tuesday and I had my MOPS group. They were all so supportive I was shocked and thankful! I cried a few times there but really was okay the rest of the time.

My DNC was scheduled for October 9th at 1:00pm. It all happened so fast.

I am still trying to process it now. I thought I would write about it since I'm up at 2:30am Saturday morning. I can't sleep! I couldn't sleep yesterday and the day before. Really have not sleep ever since we found out on Monday!

I didn't think anything of it until now. Maybe it's now hitting me emotionally. I don't know yet. I could write a lot more but, I think I better try to go to bed.

We are having my son's birthday party tomorrow. Alex is turning 1 on Monday! He has a a very rough first year and I just wanted to make his day special! He so deserves it!

I'll write again soon.

Pray if you do pray because, I think I might be starting to feel the loss and am hurting because of it. As any mother would!

When I get a chance I'll scan my ultra sound picture that they gave me! (smile)

I have a very strong feeling that it might have been a girl!

Exciting News!

2008-08-30T19:18:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,

So, we just found out that baby number three is on it's way! Yes, I am pregnant again. We are very happy about this!

I asked Eli if he things there is a boy baby or a girl baby. He said very excitedly a girl baby! Who know? It would be fun to have a girl in the family. My due date is somewhere around May 2nd!

I wrote on a shirt for Eli, saying "I'm a big brother again!" On Alex's teeshirt I wrote "I'm a big brother too!" I put those on before my husband came home. He didn't seem to notice at first until Eli said"look daddy!" as he pointed to his shirt!

He was surprised and very happy!

We thank God for this new little one!

Eli is very excited and Alex has no idea what is going on. (smile)

Our family of four has now become a family of five! Yeah!!!

Wordless Wednesday --

2008-08-27T00:31:00.001-07:00

I'm a crafty Person!

2008-08-27T00:15:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,

I am a crafty person! I've always been that way. Tonight I can a "Stamp-In-Up" Party. We made three cards. It was so much fun. For Party favors I made these little "nugget" purses for all my guests. I got that off the internet. There is just something rewarding for me when I finish a card! I also like to think about the people I will be giving them to! A gift made from love is the best gift!

So my baby Alex is sitting up by himself for a longer period of time. I am so happy for him! He is also getting two teeth. I can't remember if I told you that before!

Eli, is still doing a wonderful job with potty training! Life seems really calm right now and I am so thankful! I know I give my thanks to God! I thank him for being with me through everything!

Just wanted to check in with everyone! (smile)

Thanks for coming to my blog!

Very Busy Week!

2008-08-23T19:21:00.001-07:00

Hey everyone,

Sorry I have not written in a while. Lots been going on. Aug 16 was my husbands 20 year reunion. We went away and stayed the night. My sister Mindy and her finance watched the two boy. It was my first time away from my two little ones. It was very hard for me. I missed them sooooo very much. It was also nice to give my husband my full attention. They had a lot of fun playing with Auntie Mindy.

This whole week I made two cakes and 24 cup cakes for my friends twin girls birthday party. It turned out great. It was a lot of work and I enjoyed it. I tried a new technique that I had never done before. It's called a transfer. I took pictures from a coloring book and transfered it to their cake. I was a little aprehensive, but it seemed to turn out all right. The girls were so excited. That's what makes it the best. She was also very thankful! I'm glad that I get to have that skill under my belt to help others.

Aug 20th was my birthday. I can't believe I am 32. I don't feel that old. I had a good time. My friend Suzy and her family came over. (she is the ones with the two sets of twins) My other good friends Lisa and Brian and their little girl Annabell came as well. I made them dinner and Lisa brought a cake. We tired to put the kids to bed and sat at the table to play the game "Settlers" For those who don't know that game. Check it out! It's an awesome game!!!

7 kids under my roof! WoW!! It was great thought. Two little ones Alex and Annabell slept in my room and the twin girls and Eli played/slept in Eli's room and the newborn twins were with their mommy and daddy. Eli had a wonderful time playing with the girls. It was a late but very fun night. It was an Awesome birthday. Thank you to my friends!

The next day we made cup cakes and went to my friend Suzy's girls birthday party. That was great.

So, Eli has been spending a lot of time with Hannah and Sara this whole week. The other day they came over again so Suzy could go somewhere. I volunteered to watch the girls. Eli saw them go to the bathroom and today, he has been running around but naked and going to the bathroom on his little chair. I will be continuing this all week long. I'm hoping to have him potty trained hopefully at the end of the week. Who knows? It could take two to three more weeks. We shall see.

I think watching the other girls really helps. Children around his age using the potty is a great encouragement. So, thank you Hannah and Sara!!!!!

Alex is doing better. He has is moment of being tired but in general he is doing quite well. He is sitting up for longer periods of time. His babbling has not full come back yet. When he is awake he is quite alert.

Thank you father for watching over your little one.

So, I've also been quite busy making cards. I've been looking on the internet and I've found people with blogs who have tutorials. I love it. So I've been working really hard on making card for gifts. I'll put pictures of some of the cards I made. I'll also give you the sights were I found some of these cards. These people are amazing and do such wonderful work. I'm even having a stamping party, I'm so excited to use their products!!!

Hope this entry finds all of you well!
I'll try to be better at writing some more.

Oh, I forgot. My little boy Alex broke in his first two bottom teeth. They cut through. I'm so excited for him. It also explains him waking up so much at night time the last two weeks. (smile) Yeah for baby Alex!!!!

Wordless Wednesday -- All about Eli!

2008-08-12T23:19:00.001-07:00

A sigh of relief!

2008-08-08T15:00:00.000-07:00

So I we went to the doctors today! We were going to have to get another MRI done for Alex. Today she walked in and said we don't have to do the MRI, I know what's wrong with Alex. He has Mononucleosis. Mono! I was so relieved!!! We did all these test and ex ray's and he has Mono! II would not wish this on any baby but I'm glad that it's not something very serious! He will be tired for the next month and a half! So I just get to deal with all that! I am so okay with that. (smile)

Thank you Lord! I'm so happy!

I am my Fathers Son!!!

2008-08-06T21:01:00.000-07:00

Still Trying To Figure This Out!

2008-08-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, Have not written in a while. Sorry, let see what going on...

Eli has taken up to singing! It is so adorable he will just start making up his own songs. It is so cute to hear!

Alex is doing okay. He is getting over a cold. For a while there he was back to his happy, giggly, smiling self. Starting to babble lots and move around all over the house.

Well, these last two days he went back to sleeping a lot and being tired most of the day. We went to the doctors and he had a chest ex ray. It all looked good. He got his blood sugars checked and she ruled out diabetes. The thing that worries us the most is he is losing weight. In two weeks he lost a pound and a half or close to that. He should not be doing that. He will be getting some more blood work tomorrow. This poor child has been through more than I ever have in my life. We don't know what's going on. The Dr. thinks it could be a bad virus. She doesn't think it's the medicine. Everything is still unknown.

I gotta tell you though it hurt my heart! It hurts my heart to see my baby not being his normal self. I feel like everything is being delayed. It could be me but I know where he could be and he's not. I know it's nothing that I could have done but as a mother you just want to take all the bad stuff away!

Keep him in your thought. Thanks so much!

Wordless Wednesday --

2008-07-30T01:24:00.000-07:00

Thank Goodness for Sister-in-laws!

2008-07-25T10:43:00.000-07:00

So, things have been kinda crazy around here! My little one Alex is sleeping all the time and when he is awake he is lethargic. Well, things are getting a tinny bit better! Alex gets these burst of energy and moves around a bit. Then he get tired really easily and lays his head down. The thing is with him being tired all the time it's hard to play with Eli. He is doing really well through this all. My patience is very little and he gets yelled at quite a lot these days. I fell really bad! He just wants my attention and I can't give him what he wants when he wants it.

So, the other day my sister in-law came over and washed her car. She wanted Eli to help and he had a blast. He was able to be outside and do something fun with out mommy! I think he needed that a lot!

That same day my sister-in-law went out to dinner to just retreat for about an hour and a half. She is going through some family medical problems as well. So it was a great break for us both!

My husband has been weathering through it all as well! He has been working a lot and trying to support me as well. It's not fun for him as well.

My little one just woke up so, I gotta go.

Wordless Wednesday --

2008-07-22T23:41:00.000-07:00

Fear of the UNKOWN!!!!

2008-07-18T22:04:00.000-07:00

Well, these last two days have been an up and down roller coaster of emotions for me. I'm not sure where to begin.?

As a mother you always worry about your child! Many of you know about Alex and his history with seizures. Well, about a little over a week and a half ago I started to notice the decrees in activity level with Alex. He also has not been nursing very well. He left for most of the day and when he was awake we was lethargic. He would army crawl and drag his legs.

I didn't think anything of it at first. We had a really big hot wave here in Sacramento and then all the smoke due to the fires. I thought that made him really tired. The thing is, we were inside most of that time in an air conditioned house! So, I then thought, he was growing. I know babies sleep more when they are growing.

Other family member and Alex's physical therapist noticed that he did seem his cheerful self. So, I called the doctor and she asked me to come in. Before we saw her we had to go get blood work done. That was a night mare in itself. They usually don't get the blood. It takes them about 45min and they don't get any or something is wrong with the blood. My poor baby got pricked about four time. Two on each arm. They finally got a whole syringe full of blood for all the tests.
After seeing the doctor she confirmed my feeling by sharing my opinion about Alex. Something was off.

We almost went to the hospital to have him monitored but ended up not going. That night, Alex slept in my room in the playpen while I watched him almost all night! Not much sleep.

Then next morning my Dr. called and said she got me a 10:00 apt with the neurologist. To keep this short, he didn't think anything neurological was wrong! We are now slowly taking him off the phenobarbital. He is concerned about how tired and lethargic Alex is and we are supposed to watch him. Then he ordered a lot more lab work to be done. We went back and Alex had some more blood drawn.

It was all God, because the first time they tried, they got a vein and Alex cried when they put the needle in and then stopped crying, then cried when they took it out. My parent came up to help!

I feel as thought I was strong through it all but all I wanted to do was cry! That's usually how I get my emotions out. (smile)

I thought I had a month to get prepared for Alex to be off his meds. Now I have two weeks starting now. I'll be watching him like a hawk hopping that he doesn't have any seizures.

Do I need to fear... the answer in no because I have God with me. My human side does however fear! I don't have any control over this situation and I just have to let God worry about it. Easier said than done!

Wordless Wednesday --

2008-07-15T23:10:00.000-07:00

Morning at the Park!

2008-07-15T22:26:00.000-07:00

Well everyone, today I went to the park for the first time with both kids. I went with my friend Lisa and her little girl and the boy she is watching. I was a little scared at first. It was easy with one child, I could follow Eli around. How was I going to do it with two kids. It worked out great!

Alex went on his first swing ride. I think he liked it. He had a smile on his face. I didn't swing him to high. Then he hung out in my friends stroller.

Eli, had a blast. This is the little boy who I took to the park last time, did not leave my side once. I went with another friend, before Alex was born and he just wanted to be right beside me, while my other friends boy played on all the equipment.

This time Eli made friends. He went up to this one little boy and started to hold his hand. I was helping Alex on the swing and looked for Eli and he was holding this little boy Luke's hand and they were running around on the grass. I was shocked. The other mother looked at me and we both just thought it was so cute! I was thrilled. Eli even felt comfortable to wonder away from me. I don't know if that is such a great thing for me but he did!

Now, I met some nice other moms that I think will be fun to hang out with and get to know. I know Eli will have fun playing with the boys!

It was a great morning!!!

Wordless Wednesday --

2008-07-09T20:58:00.001-07:00

Priorities!

2008-07-08T22:11:00.000-07:00

Alex had a very hard day of play!

I'm a stay at home mother!
How blessed am I.
I find that there is not
enough hours in the day! I'm in a bible study and we are going through a book that is stretching me like there is no tomorrow! One thing the book talks about is there is no more or less time than any other human being who has ever lived! It his me hard! Another thing that was written " ...one will absolutely never come along again--the job of rearing your own children and allowing them the increasingly rare opportunity to grow up at home."
As a mother/wife we
wear many hats! I've talked about this before. Our day can get filled up really fast.

I make my list of what I need to do that day! Most of the time more than half of it is not done. I can end up going to bed frustrated. I know If I don't get something done I want to do, I get frustrated with my children.

There is a time for everything and right now the time to spend with my kids is now! To play with them, teach them and give them my time, is now! Cleaning the house can be fun with the children as well. I don't need to neglect those jobs. Wanting to scrapbook or make cards. That doesn't have to be done at this time. It requires lots of room and time to do those things. I enjoy doing it very much but find myself getting frustrated because I don't get to do it until late at night when I am tired.

There will be a time when the kids go to school. (that is if I don't home school) There will be a time when the kids will have play dates or time they want to do things them selfs. Right now, Gods job for me is my kids and husband first and foremost! Knowing that, helps me not get so frustrated during the day when I know I won't have time to scrapbook or anything else, I want to do.

I chose to be a mother and I love it. I just need to prioritizes! This season is for my children!!!
Does not mean I don't get my own time. I go to a mom's group and that helps a lot! That is for me so I can be a better mom to my kids!

Did you know, July is National Ice Cream Month!

2008-07-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,

My friend Christine is having An Ice Cream Cyber-Social. Check it out!

The Forth Of July!

2008-07-05T15:32:00.001-07:00

Hey everyone,

We had a very fun Forth of July! The morning started out really relaxing! The kids slept in until 8:00am. Yeah for mommy, I got to sleep in. Then latter that day my sister Mindy and her fiancé's Chad came over and we had a BBQ. Mindy's roommate and her friend came over as well. We lit some fire booms and crackers.

After that we headed over to my friend Suzy's house and played a game while the kids had a slumber party. Her neighbor and Suzy's husband lit the fire works for all of us to see. Eli had a lot of fun with Hanna and Sara while baby Alex feel asleep in Suzy's mothers arms. He slept through all the noise. Yeah!

We left their house around 1:00am and it was a very fun time. It was nice for me to hang out with adults and play a game. Something I have not done in a long while.

Wordless Wednesday --

2008-07-02T09:44:00.000-07:00

Wordless Wednesday -- Eli is feeding his puppy!

I'm so excited!!!!!!

2008-06-29T20:47:00.001-07:00

Okay, I just have to share this. I am so excited!!! I've been really worried about Alex and his development. I Know that every baby has his or her own set time on when they are going to do things. I was just worried for him because he is on Phenobarbital for his seizures. I thought that the medicine might be affecting him. I really have no idea. I've talked with friends about this and they give me encouragement. One of my friends said their little boy Eli didn't crawl at all and when straight to walking. It really encouraged me and gave me hope.

As a mother it's in our nature to worry about our kids. Once you have kids that never stops. Well, my friends, He is starting to show signs that he his wanting and starting to crawl. He is also starting to baby talk which I was really worried about. Eli said "hi" at 3 weeks old and is a very articulate little man. So I was concerned about Alex. He is starting to baby talk now and I actually feel so happy for him. I mean I got chill of excitement for him. I even felt like crying out of joy!

So, I was so excited that I got it on video. For those who know me I love capturing my children's moment on camera! It's my way of freezing the moment for a life time. Enjoy them!

Friends!

2008-06-27T23:17:00.001-07:00

God puts people in your life when you really need them the most. These people maybe people who are in your life for that brief period of time. There are people who are there through out your life. I would like to tell you a few people in my life who have made a difference. Who have shaped me to be there person I am today!

My elementary Sunday school class, I met one of the helpers there. Her name was Elizabeth Anderson. She took my twin sister and I under her wing. She wasn't just our Sunday school teachers helper but she was our friend. She would have us over and make cookies, or watch movies. Her sister and mom would take Kari and I to the zoo. She fed us not just with friendship but spiritually as well.

When I was in high school and even now, another leader I be friended was my friend Christine Dawson. Let's just say high school times were difficult and God knew I needed my friend Christine. She at times was my saving Grace. She got me through a lot of ups and downs in my life. Even today thought I can't get together with her she is there in prayer and through e-mail. (loving modern times)

So many people have been there for me, I want to be there for other! A friend that I have gotten to know and have had the privilege of serving is my friend Suzy Snow! We met through mops group.

She has twin girls and is pregnant with her second set of twins. She has been on bed rest for the last 10 weeks. Things are going well for her and her babies. Through out all of this strict bed rest she has had a most wonderful outgoing attitude! She is a wonderful mother and a terrific friend! I have also gotten to know her twin girls who are so sweet and fun to be around. My little boys have been able to get to know them as well!

I would like to send out a prayer request for her. If you could lift her up in pray, that would be wonderful! Please pray that the babies are in the right position during birth.Also after she has the babies that she would be able to have a single room. I no request is to small for God!

Thank you so much!

mommy teresa

Did you know this about me?

2008-06-27T22:55:00.000-07:00

So, many of you know that I am taking a cake decorating class through
Wilton. Did you know that I like to do many other things as well. When I was very little I had contracted Polio. I love the out doors but It is often hard for me to go on hikes and rock climb. So most of my college years I got myself into drawing. I love to draw portrates in pencil. Now, I'm not one of those people who can draw just by looking at someone. I need a picture in front of me and lots of time to make mistakes. I usually can go through a half of an eraser for about 5 pictures. (smile) I love the outcome. It's something that can last. Like a snap shot it is freezing a moment in time forever.

I have not been able to draw much since my kids have been born. I hope to someday start again. The picture of the older man is my husbands father who passed away a while back. The picture of the couple is of my husband and I when we were dating. The picture of a young lady is just someone I got out of a magazine to practice.

My other love is scrapbooking. I've always liked this and hope to someday start a business of my own. Creating other peoples scrapbooks who would love to have one but just don't have the time or the skill they would like.

Now when you find a good thing you just want to share it with all your friends. When I scrapbook I like to go on line and see up coming tools or ideas. There is a web site that I always go to. I've used some of their products and am excited to use more. One I would like to try is "Sara's Surfaces." At the top of my blog is their link. Click on it and you will go to their site. I just want to share it with everyone because I love it. I love looking at their weekly webisodes. For all you scrapbookers please check this out. Their products are fun fast and easy to do! It's "Paper Wishes by Hot off the Press" When I save enough money I am going to try some of their templets. The Tag templet look really fun!

Just thought you might like to know a little bit about me. Scrapbooking calms me down and I just get to focus on what I am doing with out any distractions! Most of the time I scrapbook late at night when the kids go to bed. I call it my mommy time. We all have it late at night. (smile)

Forts are Fun!!!!

2008-06-26T21:40:00.001-07:00

Okay everyone, My little boy is growing up!

Here is what happened today.

Due to all this smoke in the air from all the fires, my kids and I are held up in the house! So we have to come up with fun new things to do. We have these mats that go on the floor. They stick together like puzzle pieces. Anyway, I put 5 together and made it look like a box. I called it a fort. Then today we decorated the ceiling with glow in the dark puffy paint. I put stars and spirals and the alphabet and his name.
We played in it for a while. I went into the family room with Alex and Eli stayed in the room playing with the fort. He took his airplane blanket off his bed and put it in the fort. We went to our friends house.

Then tonight he asked if he could sleep in the fort. I told him sure! So my little boy is asleep in his fort. How cute is that.

I can't believe it! This is the first time he has ever wanted to do that. We have made forts before but he has never wanted to sleep in it.

My little baby is growing up.

Long Time...

2008-06-23T13:30:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone,

Things have been quite crazy for me. We have had a lot of family events to go to! I hope your all doing well. I thought I would write and give you an up date on how my kiddo's are doing with their sleeping.

Eli is amazing! He now goes to bed with out fighting it and he stays in his room. He sometimes is up for a good hour before he falls asleep and with this hot weather who could blame him. But like a good little boy he stays in his room.

He has hit his "two's" full blown. I am now getting the joy of dealing with temper tantrums and the "That's mine". We are working through them sometimes 3 in a day or more. (smile)

He is his mothers son! I say this because I catch him copying me and what I say. For example:
The other day I dropped something and I said "oh-y" The next day Eli did the same thing and started laughing.

I can't remember why I said this but I told Eli "It was not appropriate." The next thing I knew Alex was playing with Eli's toys and Eli took it away and said "Alex's that's not appropriate. "

Alex is doing well. When it comes to bed time he still cries when I put him down for a good 5-10 min. I mean sometimes it's high pitched. He even wake up and starts to cry before we get to the bed room. I try to put him down when he is drowsy and not fully asleep.

He is still on the medicine. I am a little worried because he isn't sitting up very well. He scoots around like an army guy not using his legs really that much. He does get to were he needs to go. We are still going to physical Therapy and she says he is doing much better. That make me feel better.

Here are some cute pictures of the boys, I hope you enjoy them.

I'm going to try to start writing on a regular basis. That is my hope... well shall see if it happens. (smile)

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY- - FUN WITH MOMMY!

2008-06-18T21:00:00.000-07:00

There is no where safe...

2008-06-13T14:05:00.000-07:00

Here is a little story that happened to use at the food store!

The kids and I were in the Rayle's food store. I would let Eli run up and down the rows if there was no one else here. So he did that quite a few time. Finally, it was time to check out. I was getting ready to pay when I heard Eli say "UH Oh, mommy my diaper fell off"! Sure enough I looked down and his diaper was down to his ankles. I was so embarrassed. Eli, didn't think anything of it. The two people behind me chuckled. I grabbed the clean diaper and while I finished paying I was thinking to my self, please don't pee! When we got to the car, I put his diaper on. That is a story Eli is going to love me telling. (smile)

Class two is done!

2008-06-13T14:00:00.001-07:00

Hey everyone,

I finished the second course of the cake decorating class! Here is my finished product! I'm very happy with it. (smile)

New insight as a mother!

2008-06-10T19:50:00.000-07:00

So, maybe many of you know this already! Today it hit me really hard! I've joined a summer bible study group. We are going through a book and talking about it in a group setting.

One thing they shared was this: When we discipline our children we do it out of love, concern, and to help our children become the men and women we want them to be in this world. Teaching them manners, not to run across the street for safety. Not to throw toys, to love your brother or sister, and many more things. Our children may not completely understand it.

That's how we are to God. We are his children weather we are 2 years old or 5o-100 years old. The things he know we may not fully comprehend why it's happening or the reason behind it. We just know that he knows what is best for us.

Like our children need to trust us, we also need to trust God. Hey, we are not perfect and we make mistakes. (sorry children) But God is perfect and he does not make mistakes. (lucky us)

Listen to Other Mothers who know what they are talking about!

2008-06-10T19:40:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,
We are back from Walnut Creek! How did the kids do? Well, they did good. Alex cried for about 10min and Eli cried a little. Then his cousin Christian started to sing to him. They were all out within 10 min.

Now as for sleeping through the night were they were, did not happen! They both ended up in bed with me while I tired to sleep. When you have children sleeping with you, they always end up perpendicular to you. Alex is waking up and I tired to put him back in the playpen but he woke up 10 min latter!

At home Eli sleeps through the night! Alex is having a hard time. He is now starting to stay up for two hours. I have no idea why. The only thing I can think of his his teeth may be hurting, trying to come in.

How do I get Alex to sleep through the night. I have no idea! If you have any helpful hits I gladly accept them.

Tonight, I put both of them to bed. I walked Eli into the room and he lied down. I told him I would leave the door open for him. He feels safer that way and there is way less crying. I have no problems with that as long as he stays in his room. Now, he has been staying in him room until tonight.

After Alex fell asleep, I heard Eli come out of his bed. He had a big smile and said, "I come out." I said "no it's time for bed." He started to cry and I said, if you cry that mean I need to shut the door. He said no and I walked him back in his room, covered him up with the blanket and asked if he wanted the door open, I have not heard from him since.

I do this also with nap times as much as I can! (smile)

Break Through!!!!!

2008-06-06T19:38:00.000-07:00

Well everyone, I think I got it. The kids are understanding what going to bed means! Eli is now going right into his bed and staying there with just a tinny bit of crying! (As he climbs into bed he does say,"mommy, I don't want to go to bed!" over and over again.)

Alex, still cries but he cried for about 5 min and then he was out.

Last night my mother-in-law put the kids to bed. She said that Eli walked himself into the bed room and went to sleep. Alex cried for about 2 min. Then he fell asleep!

The most wonderful thing about last night was, for the first time ever he slept through the night!
Alex went to bed at 8:00 and slept all the way through until 5:30. I even woke up to check on him around 3:00 because that is when he wakes up cried. I was so amazed. I still am trying to figure it out. I don't know if it was just a one time thing or if he will sleep through the night again. Who knows, we shall see.

No more tears from mommy! They don't cry so long so I don't cry. I'm really glad about that because man it was pulling at my heart strings.

This has been a really tough 4 days, but we are getting through it.

Last Monday night we ended up going home to my parents house in Walnut Creek. My twin sister and her three children were there. We ended up spending the night. Eli started out in the room were Christian and Gab were sleeping. It did not go well. Eli cried and cried and tried to get out of the room. My dad stayed at the door holding the door shut. Christian the oldest one was trying to calm Eli down by talking to him.

We are going to Walnut Creek again and will be spending the night. We shall see how this will all turn out! If he cries again or will he go to bed like he is doing now!

I'll let you all know when we return.

Thank you for everyones encouragement! I really appreciate it. It's a very hard thing to do but in the long run it's better for everyone!

Thanks again,
Mommy Teresa

To sleep or not to sleep Day Two!

2008-06-05T00:31:00.000-07:00

Well, I just wanted you all to know how day two went, with putting the kids to bed. Today was a busy day.

My boys spent some time with their Aunti Mindy. We went to some stores and had lunch! Their naps were in the car and in the store. They didn't nap in bed. I thought that might have some effect on how tonight would go. After spending most of the day with their Aunti, we came home and their Nana came over.

I was able to go to my favorite place, "Michaels" the craft store for about an hour or so. When I came home Alex was asleep in Nana's lap. Which me the consistency factor of putting him in his crib awake just didn't happen. Maybe a half hour latter their other Aunti came over. While she was here their Uncle David came over as well. Such a busy day and I know that when family or friends are over Eli does not want to go to bed. I don't blame him. Who wants to miss out when people you know are over.

At 8:00 Alex seemed wide awake, but I still put them both down awake in their beds at 8:00.

Eli and Alex started to scream again. My husband and I kissed the kids good night. (No story or prayer happened which I really wish it did!) I closed the door as my other family members are in the family room. Who knows what their were thinking. I stayed by the door and held it closed just once. Eli calmed down about 10-15 min latter. Alex took longer. They were both asleep after 20 minutes.

After Eli, clams down I open the door and leave it open. He seems to really like that. Maybe tomorrow he will not cry so much and I can open the door and he won't be as scared. I know He feels better when the door is open. I eventually want to put him down and just walk out leaving the door open.

Poor baby Alex had a harder time. He cried with all his might! Stopped for a little and looked around. Saw his brother their and a few seconds latter started to cry again. I will hope that someday soon I can just put Alex down and he will know that it is time to sleep.

I just hope that someday soon both of them can go to bed without any tears!

There is the up date! I'm trying my best! That is all I can do.

Here is a fun little video of my baby Alex with her cousin Corty! Enjoy!!!! It's not all Tears around here! (smile)

To Sleep or not to Sleep!

2008-06-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

So here is an up date on the whole putting the kids down to sleep situation. To night I put Alex down all by himself. He cried for about 25min until he finally fell asleep. About 25min latter we put Eli to bed, after he conned us in to seeing my husbands tractor, watching part of baby Einstein. Once the door closed the screaming and tears pour out! Of course our baby Alex woke up and started to scream as well. He tried to come out of the room two time but I was outside the door making sure he didn't open it. As I did this tears streaming down my face. It's so hard to hear your children crying!!! After about 15-20 min while Eli was still screaming and crying Alex's little tears and cries stopped. 10 min latter Eli's stopped and I heard him crawl into bed!

At this point my husband went to check on the boys. Alex had fallen asleep and was snoring away! Eli was lying on him bed. My husband said he was shaking but asked if he was okay and he said yes!

Teaching lessons can be so tough and I just wanted to give up and go hug my kids. The only thing is they won't ever learn how to go to sleep if I don't teach them.

When Eli was a baby we did this method and on the third day he was fine! He knew that when It was time to lay on the bed he had to go to sleep. When he was older we had to use this method again. When I was pregnant I fell asleep when he took his naps or when he went to bed so did I for a while in his room.

Now I'm breaking the habit again!

One thing I learned to night was this:

Don't but Alex to bed first and let him cry because Eli will come in and wake him up. I know that Alex can fall asleep even while Eli is crying! So tomorrow night they both go to bed at the same time and I will put them down with hug, kiss, and an "I love you" and walk out. We shall see how many days this will take, as well as how effective is this method!

Stay toon for more in this difficult time of bed/nap times! (smile)

A Home Educator!

2008-05-30T21:26:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, So something that has been on my mind for quite some time is schooling for my little ones. Eli has already learned his alphabet and can count up to 13. He knows all his shapes and colors even the color Tan. I was in the public school for most of my life and then went to private school during my high school years. I never even considered homeschooling until I got to Sacramento.

I've always wanted to be a teacher and being a mom you become a teaching automatically! I just went to a conference tonight put on by SCOPE. "Sacramento Christian Organization of Parent Educators. " It was very in formate, overwhelming and exciting all at the same time.

I talked to some people I knew who home schooled. I have two young women who watch my boys some times and they were homes schooled. Hearing the positive it had in their lives was so encouraging. Then I asked their mother how she went about starting to home school. She told me there was a conference and I went. This conference is once a year!

How interesting that it all fell into place. Well, I thought it was sort of weird and then I thought some more and it was a, as my mom would say, "God thing".

They have curriculum that incorporate the bible! I never knew that. My children could be learning their numbers and reading but also about stories in the bible at the same time. I was excited about that!

This is something that I will be praying about and asking God if it's what he wants me to do for my children!

During the talk, the speaker said that God comes first and then your Husband! Our children need to see us and our relationship with God. It's not something we need to do while there asleep or napping. I understand that if your doing a bible study and you need to concentrate then do it when they are sleeping. But just your daily conversations with God don't always have to be in your head. Start when they are young.

I could write so much more and I might continue tomorrow! For now Have a most wonderful night!

Support!

2008-05-29T22:56:00.000-07:00

It is so important to have support in you life! I feel like I'm just finding my support as a mother! I am in a great mom's group with people who are so giving with advice and help! I'm also in another group that will start up in the fall called MOPS. A wonderful support group as well as fun events! We all need support from our husbands, family, and friends. It can be really challenge raising kids and to do it on your own is even harder.

Someone who supports you always is God and even when your not with him, he is with you! To be honest with everyone my relationship with him has been very far and few between. Haven't been talking with him or getting to know him. I've been going through life on my own.

Maybe he is giving me a wake up call or maybe I've come to the realization that I can't do this at all on my own. This right now have been pretty stressful and I've been feeling a little lonely and alone. But I'm not and I'm glad I'm not!

So, here I come God back to you! Sorry it's taken so long. I want to say thank you to all my Christian friends who's lives and their walk with God encourages me to come back to him as well. Some of you don't even know you did that but God knows!

My faith will become stronger again as time goes by!!

"I can do all things through him who gives me strength!"

Splendiferous Creations: Grad Money Holder Tutorial

2008-05-23T23:36:00.000-07:00

Splendiferous Creations: Grad Money Holder Tutorial

Magical Moment!

2008-05-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

So, I just wanted to share this with you all. There are times in your life were things happen that make you feel many different emotions all at the same time! It's quite over whelming yet magical! For all of you who know me, one thing that has never changed is that, I feel things deeply. It's just the way God wired me.

Okay, this afternoon I had a magical moment with my son Alex! Out of my two children, Alex is the one I worry about the most at this time. He has been through so very much and is still going through lots! He had Erb's Palsy when he was born, he started having seizures at 3 months old. He's been through many tests and he has been taking a strong medicine called Phenobarbital to keep him from having more seizures! With all of this going on in his life, I was worried about his physical development. We've been going to physical therapy twice a month to work on his arms and back.

I was concerned that the Phenobarbital was effecting his physical development. He did really want to start to crawl. Or at least make the movement of the rocking back and forth and moving his knees under his stomach. Well, today he did. He even got up a little and rocked back and forth. To most of you this is not such a big deal. Yes, it's very exciting but "what a magical moment." I was so incredibly proud of him. Joy, sadness, relief,excited, LOVE, and Pride all consumed me. Tonight I am going through the camera and remembering that moment, and I just feel like crying out of joy!

"Magical Moments are gifts from God!"

"Keeping up the the Jones!"

2008-05-14T00:13:00.000-07:00

I'm up late and I have a lot on my mind! We all "want"! We all want more in our lives! It's human nature! It not necessarily a bad thing to want until it overwhelms you. You can want good things. For instance health for your children and husband! For love, happiness, for security,better future for your children and yourself! It's when you starting wanting just to "keep up with the Jones". It when the materialistic things creep into your life, your head, your desire!

To see someone else's house and think, I wish my house could be like that or even I wish I had a house! To see how someone looks and the cloths they wear and say wow, I wish I could afford that for myself.

There are some points in your life when you just can't have what you want. Well, my friends, I'm guilty!

I find myself wanting material things not just for me but for my family! I want bigger and better toys for my kids! I want them to play and be happy! I think, they want that to but the only thing they really want is... to spend time with mommy and daddy!! To give them my undivided attention! To not worry about what the house looks like because they are only looking at me!!! To not worry about what toys they have, because they just want to play with a toy with me!

Gotta say, this is a lesson I'm probably going to learn over and over again! Maybe next time it won't be as hard as the last time!

It's amazing how much you learn from your children!

I'm learning what it means to live with limited budget! The stress that comes with that is over whelming, eye opening, and really test me! I'm failing miserably right now but knowing is half the battle. (smile)

Kids grow up so fast and if you don't look and enjoy it closely it will be gone before you know it!
My baby Alex is now 7 months old. Seems like yesterday he was just born! So, I let my house be messy for a few days,it can be fixed in one late night cleaning! The memories will last forever. Not just for me but for my boys as well.

I'm not saying don't want! Sometimes it's good to want. Just don't let it over whelm you. Because what I want is what I have and I am thankful and thrilled about it. Yes, even through the tough times.

It's through the tough times that you really do grow and learn! Sometimes it's not that easy but you get through it. I get through it!

Okay, not that I've written all this down I can go to sleep now!

Note: It is late and if I rambled, I'm sorry! If some of this does not make since, it's because I'm was writing as I'm thinking. That can be somewhat dangerous for those who know me really well!

Sneak peek into the world of Eli Taylor

2008-05-06T22:39:00.000-07:00

"Do me a favorite" translation "Do me a favor"
"Marote" translation "Remote"
"It brote" translation "It broke"
"Pinnano" translation "Piano"

I was talking to my son today. I said "This house is such a mess" It makes me so sad. He came up and gave me a hug and said "mommy, don't be sad." " It's okay".

It melted my heart. He was showing compassion. To see you child show that emotion was very memorable for me.

My husband, was working on the truck in the front yard. Latter my son comes up to me and says "Where is my hat?" Now, he has not put his had on for a long time. All of the sudden he wanted to wear it. I thought is was sort of odd. I played along with it and found him his old navy baseball cap. He put it on and we went outside to go to the store. When I saw Jason outside he was wearing his baseball cap on his head. Now it made sense. Eli wanted to be like his daddy!

Jason, worked a lot. So when ever Eli asks where daddy is, I always say "He's at work". So now he knows when Jason is a work he says, "I need to go to work." " I will go to work outside."

More for latter!!!!

Filling my cup!

2008-05-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

So, most of you have heard the saying fill your cup. This means you need to do things for yourself so that you can do things for others. If you give and give to others and never give to yourself, bad thoughts start to creep in your mind as well as bad feelings! So to fill my cup I used to scrapbook! Love doing it. Still do but with two young ones at home I don't have any time. I will start it up again when they are older. I'll have plenty of years to catch up on. (smile) So I needed to find something else to fill my cup with. So I've started to take a cake decorating class. This is something I have found to be very fun and the results are very tasty! The things I'm learning will come in handy when its time for celebrations or even birthday parties. Here are some of my work.

I am losing my marbles!

2008-05-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

I think there is something that changes in your brain when you become a mother! You start to forget things! You put the keys down and then a minute later you are tearing your house apart looking for the keys because you can't remember where you put them.

The worst part about it is when you assume your kids are at fault. The other night I was searching the house looking for my sons water cup for bed. Now in the past he has had it and placed somewhere and then can't find it. So I assumed that is what happened and I kept asking him where did he put his cup. So after me saying, " I'm so frustrated" he is put to bed with a new water cup. Five minutes later as I go to get a drink from the fridge. I see Eli's water cup on the shelf!

That's when the wave of guilt rushes over me! How awful I felt for thinking it was Eli's fault.
Good think kids forgive really fast!

I've gotta share a really cute story! We have started to say little prayers at the dinner table. We fold our hands and Eli repeats what we say to God. Well, he was out side playing with bubbles, talking to him self. Suddenly I see him set the bubbles down and say, Thank you for the bubbles, Thank you for mommy and daddy and Alex. Okay, now I can play with bubbles and picks them up and starts to play with them! It was so adorable to see him apply what he is learning!

I was outside with my two boys and I was paying attention to Alex. I could hear Eli talking to himself. Then I was starting to listen to what he was saying and he was singing the Alphabet song all the way through! I was so excited. Now when I ask him to sing the song for other family members he thinks and then says "NOT YET".

I love my boys!!

Brothers!!!

2008-04-18T21:39:00.000-07:00

My little son Alex loves his older brother Eli. He watches him all the time and laughs at him all the time. Well, now my older son Eli is starting to play with Alex. It is so fun to watch! For a while there he didn't really want to play with Alex. On his own, he goes up and gives him a hug and a kiss and tells him that he loves him! It melts my heart!

My younger son Alex, in January started having seizures. He now on medicine but I'm always watching him! For awhile, I was sleeping in the boys room. My husband was in our room. I'm starting to sleep in the other room. It's hard but when Alex waked up early in the morning he ends up coming into our room.

One thing Eli started to do is hang onto my leg when he is apprehensive about something or someone. It reminds me of a dream I had a long time ago before I was married or had kids. I dreamed that I had a little child and they did hang on my leg as I walked down the street. Can't believe that dream is a reality!

I love being a mom with all it's ups and downs!

Who I am!

2008-04-15T20:23:00.001-07:00

So, I just wanted to introduce myself to all those who are reading this and don't know me. My name is Resa and I have two beautiful kids named Eli and Alex. I've been married to my husband for 4 years.

A little bit about me. I come from a family of 9. My mom adopted my twin sister and I from one of Mother Teresa's orphanages. We were 1/2 year old, but because of visa problems were were not able to come to the U.S until we were a year and a half. Seven of us from our family have been adopted.

I love being a mom. It has so many challenge and rewards.

Okay, now I have to go but I will return to tell you more about my family and I.